Help me become a good person?
Hello guys. Im here to ask for some advice. My problem is i think im no longer a good person. I feel like ive been very mean to my family lately. Ive been feeling a lot of hatred towards them. im always upset. i cant hold in my tantrums.
I used to be patient. Even when people were not nice to me, i know how to ignore it. Some people would call that being a pushover but im just trying to be a good person.
I also used to be a devoted Catholic. Before all this, I pray all the time. I even pray for my enemies!
But now, my heart is just full of hate. I easily get mad and annoyed. I would often curse at people quietly in my head but sometimes I couldnt help but just snap. I deactivated my facebook account and stopped answering my friends calls. The last thing i told them was they dont deserve a friend like me. because they dont.
Right now the people that annoy me the most is my family on my mother's side. I dont wanna hear their voice or talk to them. Its very irritating to me. Sometimes it gets too much. I would let it all out by lashing out to my mom and sister and they would cry because of the mean things i say.
My faith is getting weak. I have stopped praying. I feel empty.
Can anybody give me some advice? How can i stop being hateful and mean? How can i control my anger? Is it normal to feel this spiritual emptiness? Please answer my questions thank you